When Girl Meets Boy.

Hmm..

Wednesday, July 2, 200810:14 AM

I feel the difference like ever since the holidays. I was the same old me. Was. But now, I'm unsure myself. Maybe I too was influenced with the change that I too do it to be able to survive this lonesome.

You were my wings. My listener. My advisor. But now it's like you're gone. It's so much easier to just put the blame on you, and say you guys were the ones who made the change. It all started out from you. But no. That's super shit. I don't like blaming people, even if it's like the easiest way out. But I guess it just won't cure this situation, will it?

I have tried to bring us together. But we end up doing things without the knowledge of the other and we start back again at square one. Why? Is it 'cause I'm not doing enough to keep us strong? Did you even do anything about it? I'm really trying to put my mind, thinking that you guys did try. Just hoping and wishing that you did.

Now I feel like I'm treated coldly. That I'm just being pushed out of your life. Even the little things that you used to tell me doesn't seem to make it's way to me anymore. And I don't even know how to start my small litle things anymore without being self-conscious, without feeling that it will bite me in my ass again.

It seems like it will be easier to just give up with you guys and start up a new click. But it just doesn't feel the same. It will never be the same like how we are, or rather how we were. And it is such a tough thing because I really can't let go off you guys.

If it's me that has been changing, I urge you to tell me. Don't treat me negatively, don't push me out. We have been close right. So I don't think it's too hard for you to tell me what is wrong. I'll be alright to take on this blame just to save our friendship.

May the force be with us.

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